Special Needs Kids

I am a Cafemom mom. I just joined a group for moms with special needs kids. I just want to cry when I hear what some of these kids have to go through. I think about James and I wonder what I am whining about. James has MILD PDD. His speech delay isn't really that bad. He can talk anyway. I mean, it could be so much worse. He can mostly tell us what he wants. As long as he's not too tired, he's pretty good. But then he has one of those days where I just want to pull my hair out and have a good mixed drink at the end of the day. Chocolate also does it for me.

I'd like to get more services for James for his speech delay and behavioral support. But then some days I wonder if it's for me or for him. I think maybe it's a little of both sometimes. I just feel so busy some days that I don't have time to do for him what I need to do. That's shameful, but that's how I feel. I do try to spend as much time with him as I possibly can.

I guess every now and then I realize just how good I do have it. I think God knows that John and I wouldn't be able to handle more than we have now. We are stretched with our children, and that's good. We have the chance to be better people because of our children. I feel as though I'm more aware of children who are "different." I can be empathetic to their parents, because I know how they feel. James definitely has his moments when I'm sure people are wondering why I can't control my child. Maybe someone else could do a better job with him, but I am doing the best job I can possibly do with him.

I guess that we all have our struggles, and who is to say which is better or worse than the other? When you're in a situation, you just do what you have to do. You don't even think about it. It's your situation, and you make the best of it. That's all anyone can do or want.